Meja study..hehh

Yelah takde motif .. saje

Talk about karma.

One of my friend told me he has been haunted by KARMA now, after doing bad thing to other people 3 years ago. He left his girlfriend for other woman without telling her anything, didnt give her any sign. At that time he didnt feel guitly at all. He was very happy with the new woman. And now the woman left him for younger man. She just ditch him away, similar way he left his previous girlfriend. He said to me, karma is doing its job, its take only 3 years to punish him for the wrong doing. "What ever you give, you get back". Popular qoute. Everyone know it.

I now single after being double for almost three years. Do I now been punished by my own KARMA? I take 'him' from other woman. I was young and stupid last time, he told me he already break up from his fiance. And right after 3 years (yes, also 3 years) he went away from me. Seems like karma is punishing me. Serve me right. Will pray for that 'kakak' hapiness ever after. I heard shes already married. She called me, to confirm my relationship with her fiance at that time, shes nice and soft talking person. Dont ever take others happiness for yours, maybe the most selfish thing to do. KARMA will for sure punish you well.  

Kerja and Jodoh

Man, man, man, man...banyak gila kerja sekarang. bulan 6 aku ade present final result. memang menangis kali ni dengan keje and tekanan yang bakal dihadapi. Sampai personal life pon dah berterabur. Very shitty perasaannye disaat semua orang sedang manghadapi kebahagian menjalani alam perkahwinan, bina keluarga yakni beranak dan terus beranak. Huh...Entah bila aku nak lalui semua tu. Calon untuk nak kawen pon takde, apetah lagi nak pregnant and ade anak?? Liat jodoh. Mungkin aku akan jd mcm ni..Huhh..Orang sekeliling dah tanya, bila nak kahwin....Mana la aku tahu, jodoh Allah yang tentukan. Huhh..Need to pray very hard kot.

Kata-kata Maha Pencipta

That God may forgive you your mistakes of the past and those to follow, and to perfect His blessing upon you, and guide you to the Sraight Path.

(Surah Al Fath 48:2)

Hari ini lebih baik dari semalam.

Semalam ade usrah. Actually aku terpaksa join satu kumpulan usrah yg di'conduct' oleh kawan aku. Memang liat sangat nak pergi setiap mlm khamis, tapi terpaksa la nak jaga hati kawan aku tu. Tapi setiap kali aku berusrah ni, mamang banyak input menarik tentang agama yang aku dapat. Semalam masa usrah kitaorang buat makan-makan. Roti sardin celup telur. Sambil-sambil tu kawan aku ni tanya la ape yg kitorang buat hari ni, adakah lebih baik dari hari semalam. Dia bagitau kita kena selalu analyse adakah hari ini lebih baik dari hari sebelomnye dan berazam supaya hari esok lebih baik dari hari ini. Must plan apa yang kita nak buat esok, letakkan target. So bila aku pikir-pikir ape yang aku dh buat hari ni compare dengan semalam, hari ini nampaknye lebih baik. Kalau semalam aku bangun pukul 10 pagi, mengakibatkan aku terlambat untuk masok lab untuk buat analysis, pasal method yang aku pakai banyak step, mau 5,6 jam baru siap. So aku just lepak dalam bilik siswazah, bual-bual dengan teman sesupervisor. Buat keje sikit sangat, banyak buang masa berinternet and dengar lagu. Tapi hari ini aku bangun lebih awal. Pkol 9.10 pagi camtu, mandi and bersiap cepat-cepat, teros masok lab and mulakan keje. Malam pulak aku plan nak kuar dengan farah, tapi farah ditch aku. Tak jadi jumpe padahal aku dah excited dah. Sampai hati kau farah. Huhhh.... Tengah malam sikit on facebook, nampak kawan lama online. Boring, so try ajak die chatting..tiba-tiba dia teros offline. Hm somehow felt a lil bit sad at the end of the day. Hari ni mungkin lebih baik dari semalam tapi kerja matter tak mempengaruhi mood aku tapi personal thingy sangat influence aku punya emosi dan semangat, untuk teroskan hari esok...